That last chance to make a presence felt
Before going off on a long dream
A final attempt to soar and shine
As the sharp winds clip your wings
Leaf by leaf
Like a candle that burns
Violent, grand, desperate
Just before it fades into smoke
And all that’s left are the dry, burnt out insides
And as the sky turns grey
You glow even brighter
From a blazing gold to a smouldering red
A glimmer of warmth in those fiery hues
Before the long night of winter
Envelops you in snow
Cold, quiet, complete.
Pretty graffiti
I just returned from an almost two-week trip to Germany and Czech Republic last week, and while I bombarded my Instagram with a ton of pictures, here are some sketches I started there and finished here.The art and graffiti on the walls of Berlin were quite inspiring and as I tried to imitate some of it (and failed!), I realised that typography can really be tough. We don't appreciate graffiti artists enough!And this is exactly what was going on in my mind as I was walking around in Prague. Every. Single. Building. Is soooooo beautiful, you can't decide where to look! It seriously is overwhelming. And since I found some graffiti in Prague too, I just HAD to put it down in a doodle....and that's me, sitting on a bench on a river island in pretty, pretty Prague. Sometimes when you finally find those moments of peace that you've really been looking forward to, you don't even feel like sketching because you don't need anything else to feel happy and content. Just look up at the sunlight streaming though the leaves, take a deep breath and you'll find yourself smiling to yourself. But I just had to capture that peaceful moment, so here's a quick sketch I made: Our country might not be as clean and well maintained as those, but I sure am glad we have parks and trees for lazy, peaceful afternoons like this.
Holiday Obligations
The pressure to have fun
To fill every second of every minute of every idle hour
with purposeful activity
that negates all the stress of past months
The obligation to appreciate
the luxury of time
nature, beauty, food, rest and play.
To soak these myopic eyes
with all the greenery around,
hoping it would heal
weeks of screen-aches.
To fill my lungs with fresh oxygen…
Enough to last till the next vacation
To fill at least two pages of my sketchbook
to make up for days of settled dust on it.
To forcefully shut out
any thought of office
work, routine, chores
and exhale every worry
through deep, mindful breaths
The obligation to fit in at least
one healthy meal
or a twenty minute walk
So I can check off the “health” box.
To skim over every possible experience
Instead of just immersing myself in one.
The obligation to not miss a sunrise
because I miss them at home everyday
But also to catch up on my lost hours of sleep
to rest my overworked brain.
The pressure to really, truly, completely, thoroughly
enjoy every single moment
Yet
not sulk in regret
if it doesn’t happen.
To look nice, yet effortless
To stay off the grid, but ‘update’ and share’
To find that perfect seashell / pine cone / pebble / leaf
The perfect souvenir
To take the perfect selfie
The perfect picture of the
ever-changing yet always perfect
golden sunset
Oh, the pressure to just chill!
…I need time out after my vacation.
Neck pillows, neck pillows everywhere
They say when you travel, you grow as a person. Well, here are some of my learnings from a recent international trip:
- When it comes to prettiness of a place, 90% of the job is done by cleanliness. Design / architecture comes later.
- There are a similar proportion of idiots in every country. It seems more in India, because there are more people.
- There are a similar proportion of nice people too in every country. We get used to local niceness, so foreign niceness comes as a pleasant surprise.
- Cotton socks are useless in the snow. Stick to big, fuzzy woollen socks.
- Always carry moisturiser.
- Scandinavian countries are setting great examples of women's equality.
- Dubai Duty Free is overrated. Any Duty Free is overrated.
- After your twenties, you can't imagine moving to another country, you're too comfortable and used to where you are.
- Croissants + coffee is awesome, so is parathas + adrak chai. You can't compare.
- You can find photos on the internet, not memories.
- A big vacation calls for a small vacation when you return - to get some rest from all the travel.
- And finally, if you travel without a neck pillow, you haven't really "arrived".
Prayer flags in primary colours
Prayer flags in Bhutan, in primary colours or pure white, flutter in the cold winds of the mountains. For us, they served as motivator landmarks (let's reach the next group of flags and then take a five minute break) as we huffed and puffed our way to the 'Tiger's nest' monastery up the hill. For locals, it takes about an hour or so, but for us unfit, sedentary, city dwellers, it took more than two hours, mainly due to the uphill climb, but also because we kept stopping to take pictures of the breathtaking view from every angle.
Crayoning in Auroville (again!)
Now it has been ages since I have done any drawing, so obviously the results were crappy, but I did not let that stop me!
Anyway, it is good to be back on the blog, back in all the colourful action, and here's hoping it continues. :)
And of course, there were a few mandatory Instagram shots. I'm new to Instagram, a late and reluctant joiner, but I must say, I quite like it. (Except for the hashtag overload).
Check it out here: http://instagram.com/shivanigakhar
Light: Red + Green
2010 - The year of travel.
Ahmedabad - Indore
Rajasthan in Pink!
Pondicherry
Friday, August 26th, 2005
7 pm: I get a call from Nidhi, "we are going to Pondicherry, have to leave before 8:30, you say yes..." and I say," this is so unexpected, I’m not prepared at all, maybe if you planned before..., I’ll call you back." Two minutes later I call her," what time are we leaving?"
11 pm: The "vehicle" arrives at the guys' flat. It’s an amazing little minibus and to our surprise, we find a TV screen & VCD player!! We take the bus to my place to get some movies.
And then the journey starts with the lucky number of 13 people...
Some photographs, arguments about which movie / song to play and the driver getting irritated changing cds, increasing / reducing the volume... Around 3 am I fall almost asleep...
Saturday, 27th August
6 am: I wake up to find that it’s been raining. First thought in my head," I missed the sunrise". We get down & click some pictures at the border of the city. "Say hello to Pondicherry!!"
We reach near the ashram and hunt for possible places to stay, looking for the cheapest option. So we find a dorm where we can stay till 6 pm, free of cost!
11 am: Post shower & breakfast, Stop 1: Aurobindo Ashram - a place that has unusual and beautiful little flower gardens. A little walk through different rooms finally takes me to the Samadhi. A tranquil place under the shade of a tree, where some people are meditating. A place which is silent, but not still. No one seems to be in a hurry, yet everyone seems to have a sense of purpose. I sit and observe for a while, trying to soak in the peace, when the group's patience finally starts evaporating... A quick search for the history of Sri Aurobindo, but no results.
Next Stop: Hotel
We dump our stuff at Hotel Kanchi & head to the bike rental shop. 7 out of the group know how to ride, so no problem. About an hour, some test rides and some pictures later, we realize how hungry we are and head to the French Colony in hopes of finding "authentic French cuisine". Not finding place on the terrace of a sea side restaurant, we reach another place, which looks very similar to the one in the movie, 'Jism'. Coincidentally, a song from the same movie is playing in the restaurant as we enter. Some people decide to leave, finding very little vegetarian food. The rest of us make a bad decision of staying, proved by the tiny quantity of food whose size and taste is inversely proportional to its price. Anyway, as I finish the meal with lots of ice & water, I decide to eat 'satsa tikau' idlis for the rest of the trip. Something I soon forget...
Next Stop: Auroville. Rahul Negi had told us about his friend, Riaz, who has a cafe and who, hopefully can take us to some nice party in the jungle. A 10km drive later, we reach, but don't find him. The thought bubble of the party pops. Disappointed... Anyway, the beach is just around 200 m from here.
The first sight of the ocean can't be described in words. It’s a weird combination of excitement and peace..! The cameras come out and the shoes come off. Lots of pictures clicked, lots of shells collected, lots of sand in my clothes..
Something weird about me is that when I am close to nature, my mind turns philosophical.. I sit aside and try to soak in the experience.
7 pm: Time to go back. We wonder how we will go back with sand scraping every inch of our skin. The journey back is accompanied by some laughs, jokes and, well, a lot of discomfort!
Dinner time: We find this small "North Indian" dhaba where all the curries have the same color, but we all are impressed by their hospitality. Thought in my head," lunch compensated".
Post dinner, we go to the beach and sit at the wall at the edge. This one is a rocky beach and the waves splash against them time & again. We sit and chat, and discuss how the waves are moving. I lie down on the wall and watch the waves, not wanting to close my eyes for a second, it is so fascinating. 12 o' clock, I wake up, we have to go back to the hotel. We decide to come again at 5 am to watch the sunrise, while I'm thinking,” I don't think I'll come".
Sunday, 28th August
8:30 am: Neha wakes me up and the first thought in my head is “I’m sure no one went to the beach this morning". We get dressed and go for breakfast while others go to return the scooties. Today, the people decide to go on bicycles. Nidhi & I can't ride se we have to sit on carriers of bikes with Manish & Hitesh. Afterthought," I should have got a pillow..."
More photographs and we head to a church. It is a nice and quiet place that needs renovation. Upon entering, the first thing I see is the stained glass windows in vibrant colors. Some photographs, trying to take the best view. I sit down again and try to soak in the peace.
Next Stop: "Ferry ride". Someone tells us that ferry rides are towards Auroville, so we bravely set off again, realizing only later how tiring it is. This time we meet Riaz and he tells us that no ferry rides here, they are 10km on the other side of Pondicherry. Disappointed again. But no problem, the beach is here. All of us are extremely hungry by now so we go to this beautiful place, Eden, which has small thatched roofed seating areas and we find that cottages here are much better and cheaper. Well, good tip for the next time.
6 pm: We finish our lunch (or dinner?) and head to the beach again. Lots of dead fish strewn about. So that's where the smell was coming from in the restaurant.
This time I decide not to get soaked. But the sea doesn't listen to you, does it?
Post sunset, we all reluctantly leave. The journey back is, well, quite painful. Believe me; never sit on a bicycle carrier when you have sand in your pants! We form a straight line so that no one gets lost and it’s quite a sight. All this while, Nidhi & I feel so bad for the guys...
8 pm: We reach back and suddenly everyone remembers that they have to shop before leaving. Prioritize - shopping or Ganesha temple? A quick round at the temple precedes shopping. People have found a factory outlet here. I start wondering...
Anyway, since Hitesh & I don't have to shop, we go to the wall to see the ocean. It’s always beautiful...
Time to go back.
10 pm: We all leave from the hotel to go to the border where after reaching, I realize, I don't have my cell phone. Lots of phone calls and an hour later, we head back to Bangalore. Thought in my head," I wonder if I could get that old small phone from Delhi".
29th August 1 am: We stop at a dhaba for snacks and coffee and try to check my phone again. Someone calls up and takes my address. Hope to get my phone back...
While most people are at the dhaba, we click some pictures on top of the bus and quickly get down before others come back : )
I fall asleep in the middle of the movie playing in the bus.
6 am: I wake up to find we are close to HSR Layout. All set to go back to home sweet home. Thought in my head," Am I going to give my presentation in class today...? I wonder."