Self care
It can be quite difficult to come to terms with the whole idea of "self care', especially when you've spent the last year and a half doing exactly that. I guess the biggest part of taking care of yourself is not the things you allow yourself to do or not do, but to do them without guilt, or a sense of panic that you're wasting your time. There's a lot more to learn and like they say that with every challenge there's a learning, I'm hoping I'll end up learning something from this challenge I'm currently facing.
The time is NOW
On most days, I get a sudden sense of panic during that lazy post-lunch hour at work. I get restless with thoughts bombarding my mind - not desperate, negative thoughts, but thoughts of great creativity, excitement and motivation. ...Of things I should be making, subjects I should be drawing, topics I should be writing about... endless lists bubbling in my brain. But a corporate schedule doesn't allow for sudden outbursts of crayon doodling, and by the time I get home, I'm too tired to pick up my tape and scissors to make anything.
So I've decided to try out something new. I am going to try to satisfy my creative urges whenever I can, on priority - whether there are chores to be done, the house to be cleaned or emails to be answered. Even if it means making an ugly, out-of-proportion fashion illustration, or just filling up a page vigorously with a creamy stick of oil pastel crayon, I'm going to do it.
Because the time to live is NOW.